It's my right =[

Ever since I began living in this apartment, I feel like each day I've grown a little older. I just want to nag about how cruel life is or how inconvenient things are. Or stressful one night can be. Yes I like the freedom I have living on my own, I can leave at three in the morning and go where ever I please. The challenge is living within your means, knowing how far you can go and stopping yourself even when you know you've met that point. This rambling is what I have gathered from this adulthood so far. You may have freedom but what restricts you is your cash flow, your safety, and everyone's expectations from you. I like to be peaceful, especially considering the ones I live with. I thought I would live with one roommate. However she has a boyfriend who lives with her and I have a boyfriend who most nights lives with me. His, Theirs, and my friends all come over to chill. There can be a lot of traffic through Fernando (the name of our apartment, that's a story for another time), so it can get pretty messy. It can be difficult to constantly clean up after everyone leaves or just on a daily basis. Sadly ( I don't like bitching about this), I feel like the only one who ever cleans the stupid place. People walk in and don't give my home any respect. I have seen cigarette ash inside one of my glasses! and in the sink, in toilets...It's all disgusting. My roommate never helps. My boyfriend has cleaned more than her, so have a few of my friends. I have to admit a few while sometimes take out the trash for us or do whatever manly chores are around Fernando. the vacuuming, dishes, cleaning toilets and showers...those are all mine. Or just picking up in general. I just want guests to have respect, I mean I have found my kitchen in conditions I don't think anyone's momma would allow. this is my first apartment I enjoy having friends come over, I couldn't do that a lot at home. I don't want them treating my apartment like some open to the public hangout. It's not, if you eat my food contribute somehow. Throw your trash away. And for God's sake please don't change my music. I just want things to even out and a steady flow of friends come over and leave at decent hours of the night.Thanks.