I have decided to stay awake. My mind moves at lightspeed, no thought uncrossed but no thought fully searched. This one night has allowed me to surface the crave of time I need to myself. This very little lick of satisfaction opened me to blogging. At least at this point I am able to concetrate and find something to write about. Eveytime I try to commit time to my blog, it all falls apart. There's so much I could add or keep from readers. I become so indecisive that I tend to shy away from the computer all together.

This time I have to myself gives me a chance to listen to my music. I'm around friends all the time, which is a good difference compared to being back home. However, I have lost a large importance in my life, my music. I never get to look for new music or pull out old albums. No rituals, no comfortable spots to meditate. I'm not use to this lifestyle.